Saturday, February 6, 2010

Topsy-Kurly, Under Where?

Topsy Kurly

First off, to explain the title. Another online friend calls me "Kurly" and this is meant to be a play on the phrase "Topsy Turvy" of course.

Apparently I am in KC because the name pops up in the dream, but I'm not sure where. I am sitting in a room with a friend from URU. Er, Norway. But I don't know her or call her by her real-world name, but as her URU name! So I didn't call her "Yngvil", I call her "Topsy", and she goes by that name as well! :p
She's sitting in this big comfy chair in front and to the right of mine. She's saying how glad she is to have come here. To America? I ask. No, specifically here, with me. She says she now knows where she came from!
She tells stories of how her essence entered this plane of existence first in KC here, then drifted off elsewhere to be actually born, but now returning here she feels more of a kinship here.
She has different version of her story, or I get clearer answers with follow up questions? All I can recall is the last version. She said something like "I came as a rain drop and I fell softly into that one fountain you showed me and entered the KC water supply."
"But .... I thought you were from Norway, weren't you born there?" I asked curiously.
Slightly agitated, she answers, "Yes, eventually I made my way to the place where I was physically born. But for all intents and purposes I was truly born here."

Meanwhile I sometimes had a book in my lap, and a pen. I was trying to look things up and record things, too. This seemed like a book of my friends, it had their faces and info in it. I was trying to find hers. At the same time, I didn't want to "cheat", I wanted to be able to recall her naturally PLUS she was sitting right there! :D I realized a truth about me was that I was still in shock that she was actually here with me, no longer somewhere else online. So I got a bit anxious then.
I was happy and relaxed to have her over, but once I thought of that stuff, I got a bit nervous and awkward and I felt I was going to be stupid and ask stupid questions and not be observant or relaxed and stuff, which is what happens to me in real life.
I say things like "so ..... you're "Topsy", right? T-o-p-s-y?" You hadn't told me your name when you came in, you just said my name with a big smile on your face and pulled me into a big long hug. I knew you WERE Topsy, but I was nervous now.
"Yes, I'm Topsy." and you said it with an edge of exasperation and hurt in your voice.
But I realized that a kind of "joke" to tell you. I told you "My name is Kurly, so now together we are Topsy Kurly!" We got a big laugh out of that and things got relaxed again and I put my book down and the dream ended as you came to sit in my chair with me.
That was really nice!

***

I don't remember much from this next dream, but I was tired of where I was living with people (family?) and at the end of the dream I was packing up to go, mainly my clothes.
I mention this because it bled into my next dream ...

Under Where?

So now I am in a room. It is a combination of a hotel room, apartment, or part of a house, but MAINLY a very nice hotel room.
I unpack and put my stuff away, mainly clothes but a few other things. I go to bed, but I can't go to sleep right away. I can hear other people for one thing. For another I realize I don't even know what time it is here! So I roll over in the bed to the edge to find some kind of clock. All I see is a modern cordless phone standing up in a stand.
Man this phone is teched out! But simple! It is thin. The screen has all kinds of options on it, but all I want is the time and I am having trouble concentrating and finding the time. I think I finally find it and it says 2:22 AM. NOW I have to figure out how to make it into a wake-up alarm, lol!

So, eventually the phone wakes me up, and i go for a shower. I saw to myself "Boy, this shower really is a show-er!" Because all the walls were clear so anybody could see me. Is that ... water running through the walls? But, I don't have time for modesty, I have to shower! So, I shower and dry myself and wrap a towel around me. Now i see people outside, so I'm nervous. I try to hunker down, and walk that way sometimes. I am looking for my underwear, but I can't seem to find it. I look out the front door and realize I left a satchel out there on the steps!
So I go out there to look inside it, but now there are two young women on the steps, in the way of my bag. I am trying to step around them and quietly open my bag,and at first they are just doing their own thing. (note I am not sure what I'm wearing at this moment, feels like more than just a towel but I'm not sure). The girl in front of my bag giggles at me and asks what I need. I said I need what's under there and pointed towards my bag. "Under where?" she asked, I answered "Underwear, exactly!" and I showed her that I wasn't dressed yet and she got a big laugh out of that. So, she offered to help me look in my bag.
She giggled even more then. "Are you sure this is your bag?" Then she opened up a roomy side pouch and showed me there was only a bunch of panties! I was so shocked and embarrassed, I told her I had MY underwear in there, "she must have put these in here when I wasn't looking." and the young woman laughed and said "no, I put mine in here when you weren't looking. This is my bag, silly!"

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

BOL, Lucky Foot Coin

BOL

I was with a guy and a girl. We were out in the sunshine it was a nice Spring day. We were on a slight incline on a mountain with light green on it. There were three wires, like steel cables.
The girl was trying to balance on one of the wires and doing a great job of it when this Ball of Light appeared floating in the sky towards us.
The girl didn't really take much notice of it. She started getting worried and upset and afraid, and the BOL came right down on her and enveloped her!
Then it quietly left and hovered in the sky. It can change shape color and form. It now looks like a black & white soccer (Football) ball!
She said it was nice and good and she felt better, but she didn't want to do that again. She wasn't ready for it.
I volunteered, because it felt OK to me not vampiric or anything. Do, I went out and balanced on the wire. Firstly, in real life I have crap balance, but here I was able to balance with no effort. Then I breathed in and out like yoga and I asked that only if the BOL were non-vampiric and good could it come to me. It enveloped me. I was not straight now, I was either leaning backwards or forwards (I forget which now that I am awake) and it was like a shower! It was cleansing me! It was cleansing my aura and my mind heart and soul. It felt great.
It got offa me and I thanked it and copy pasted some of my energy to it. It happy zipped back into the sky.

****

Lucky Foot Coin

I find a coin in my apartment like place. Before I did I was getting all this bad luck. But as soon as I pick this coin up, all those bad luck things start to turn around to good luck,and more good things happen!
MEANWHILE a woman is sad because she lost her lucky coin. Someone is talking to her comforting her. She says it has something to do with her foot. Like she rubbed it on her foot to make it lucky or something? She is sad because this coin is gone. The Comforter tells her it's OK, don't be sad or greedy, now someone else in need can use the coin. And she can make a new one now. She tried it did not work. Well try now, the timing wasn't right. She tried, it worked! She held her palms together and saw a time where she had a coin in them, and one appeared! She rubbed them first on her corns and they went away.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Hotel Room Clean-up

I had many DreamZZZ last night, and I was again hoping to recall any times I went to help in Haiti, but alas again I am unable to recall anything like that. I hope I'm going, just not remembering. :(

I only have tatters of the ones before. Like one centered around a building. Around the perimeter were ledges of differing heights. I was walking along side another guy when he seemed to fall as we were talking. But he was out of my sight, so it took me a moment to get him in sight again. When I did, he was just fine. That's good because I did not want him to be hurt.
I don't know who he was, but he kind of looked like "Noah Bennett" from the TV show "HEROES".

***

Hotel Room Clean-up

I am in a nice but small hotel room. There is a spacious bedroom with 2 beds in it with enough space between them (another bed could almost fit), a long closet that took up an entire wall, and a spacious bathroom with many amenities BUT I didn't get to go in so I do not know the details.
I think the beds had a patterened red bedspread. Red with thin white figures on it. A repeating pattern like bedspreads have. I don't recall any windows and the beds faced the door which was more on the left side of that wall.
I think when I was first in there, other people were with me. 2-4 others. There were a lot of items inside the room all over the place. In the closet, on top of dressers and night stands, etc.
Now I have two goals. 1) I want to leave the room and go somewhere else (I forget where, but it did not seem to be at an appointed time) 2) straighten this place up before I left.
First thing I do is to try to make myself comfortable for all this moving around. I take my wallet out of my pocket and place it on a dresser. There are other important items there too, like keys and the hotel room key and an iPod. I go around in clean-mode. I look to put things in order, throw some things away, and take some things with me.
Soon I notice that the front door is open. There is a young woman standing out in the hallway looking into this room. I seem to accept her presence. She has dark brown (maybe black?) wavy hair that is sometimes loose and sometimes pulled back into a bun. She is wearing glasses. Her face is like a fairy goes through my dreaming mind, like a rounded heart shape with a cleft chin and her eyes seem bigger than they are physically. They do not look big, but they draw you in and seem to contain worlds and knowledge and mirth. But her aspect was calm. She just stood there. She did not scare me. She was slender, too. We were comfortable with each other.
I asked her if I was in her way. She replied I could take my time, that I was on her way. She seems matter-of-fact.
It also seems that this may be her room, too.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Dreams Repeat Twice - Gill Tank & more

My DreamZZZ kept repeating tonight. Always twice, with slight variations in the second version, and they were not right after each other.

1) Gill Tank

I had dreams about a fish, I forget one of them, but I do recall some from one.
There was this guy talking to me about what another person (male?) did and was questioning in a judging manner. He wanted me to look at this fish tank and I did. I saw one medium sized fish in there and maybe other fish were there too but I focused on the one, mainly like a gold fish. It was in the middle, calm. The water looked clear. The tank was roughly the size and shape of a computer "tower".
He calls it a "gill tank", and it is meant to be used as a temporary place to keep the fish when you are cleaning it's tank. It is also specially designed to clean the fish and other things. But it is meant to be a place you put it until its original tank was ready again, and this person was complaining because the fish owner was usign it as the ONLY tank.

I've never heard of a Gill Tank, sounds like a cool idea, though!

***

2) School Class - Cultural Anthropology & Tardiness

I got in a few minutes late right when the teacher was finishing up getting everybody settled down. I see a pretty sweet smart looking girl, who I thought was also shy, looking at me and smiling at me with the most warm and caring smile I've ever seen. It makes me anxious (what do I do?) but calm (it's all good - from her eyes and smile) at the same time. But then I had to concentrate on the teacher.

****

The second one there is a tall thin white guy with an accent and a kind of grayish-beige duffel-bag backpack thing. He is flusterated, I try to help him. It calms him down and he thanks me. We go into the classroom and we're late. The class is already underway. We scramble to get out out pen notebook and textbook. As I was flipping through I saw a chapter on Dental Hygiene with a wide open mouth full of teeth.

3) Couple On The Run

This is another repeater. In the second one, I am with this girl. This dream is full of mistrust and fear under the surface. There is a Most Wanted couple, and this other guy who may be her brother who is bigger than I am (taller bulkier fatter) comes into the bed room saying he is suspicious that i am the guy in the photo and he wants to turn me in and get me away from his sister. I am innocent and try to tell him. One way is by showing that this guy has a lot of money he got illegally and spent it on a lot of nice things. I showed him my cheap zero frills cell phone. It took awhile, but I think he left convinced to wait for more evidence.
Soon there after the authorities come in. They tell the girl to get on her knees. She says "Idiots. You are hurting yourselves trying to stop us. What you are doing to change to stop us with violence and force is doing far more damage than our act s are, and that is the real damage we want!"
I can't believe it, she's the one in the picture? They have the brother too and it turns out he is not related, but her partner in crime. I'm scared because I am close to this girl and him. But the authorities don't seem to pay me much mind. I don't know what to do so I just try to remain as calm and observant as I can.

3) Movie Info

Another double. Basically this tall thin black guy with mini-dreads (like corn rows but not) comes to the side of me on the road, asking me about an up coming movie. I have the stub so I answer his questions and help him. I am a bit wary of him but help him and I'm nice and nothing bad happens.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Getting The Room For Him

pre-note: I have been having a terrible night's sleep as of late. I can go to sleep, but then I'm awoken by either these god-awful nails-on-chalk-board rattling/banging sounds above me that sound like water pipes having a bad time of it I guess ... or a jackhammer running as several very heavy metal desks are dragged along the floor sloooooowly. That and/or noises from the neighbors above, sometimes a dog who sounds pissed, or the TV, all at 1-2 am.
Well, last night it was the rattling that bugged me. And I "wanted out". Not suicide, I say again, but to be able to leave this "game" or whatever this is. I can play a game but leave it for awhile, this "game" we can't leave, so I feel imprisoned and trapped so sometimes it is no fun.

I know someone was in the room a real person not a ghost. But there was nobody. I checked the door. The hinges were on the other side so I know it was a dream.

So at 1:23 am (seriously!) I gave up and got out of bed and had a spot of green tea (decaffeinated) and just sat doing nothing else. Eventually going back to bed .. after checking the door's lock for like the fifth time. Then I woke with a dream where I was in a restaurant, and in a city, and i met an old friend (not in real life, I don't know them in real life) and he asked me to secure him a hotel room that had to do with Iran or something. So I finally found the right one and set up the room for him. Then he wanted to go shopping. He tried on a black dress and a wig :) He was fun. There were a couple other guys trying on woman's clothes in the back, but it was OK they were nice. I was still a bit uncomfortable about it in the dream they were asking me that i should get one of the dresses for "my friend" and I felt they meant you Yngvil. I just smiled an embarrassed smile and stuttered out a kind of no, but they were nice and changed their behavior a bit to make me less anxious. The I woke :p

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

SoulMate (2 Light Years Away)

I find myself in bed with this white skinned dark haired woman. She is working with me in a way only my soul mate could. She is forgiving my misgivings and broken pieces inside, she is encouraging me with empathy just the way where i can work through things to healing and being. She is turning my doubt and pain and fears around (these cause by my family and friends).
I am scared, worried, wondering if this is OK, wondering if I will do it wrong, is she trying to trick me, am I doing this more for her than myself and is this OK? In other words thinking too much, stuck in the loop of my mind that comes not from my true essence but how I was raised.
She is healing me, taking me through a process. She is reminding me of my true essence and allowing me to forget (and forgive) my faults wither inside or put there by others (read I let them in).
That is why I know this is my soulmate. She knows just what to do. And I can do the same for her. Without effort, the process of healing ramps up and the ultimate kind of Love takes over.
I kiss her passionately on the neck now.
Now I understand the song "Sexual Healing"
Because it was not just sex, but a real joining of two souls. I wasn't just with a lover, but my soulmate.

Now we are swimming in the starry expanse. I see some bright lights in the otherwise pitch black sky. I hear another voice say "19 light years." Then it says "17 light years." Then I feel the hidden difference is the answer, so the answer is between 19 and 17, which makes 2.
2 again. I have been dreaming about and seeing 2 (and pair like things) a lot lately. Not too long ago I had a dream with this dark-haired woman where I was seeing two in everything. The two of us, two beds right next to each other, and a desert-scrub landscape with two suns (I was watching the sun set and rise at the same time. It was like a wrap-around video game or cartoon. I mean as the sun set it rose on the other horizon as if the two suns was just one sun and the west and east were joined with no distance between them).
Why all these twos, in dreams and waking life as well? For example there was 12-22-2009 if you write it like that you have 2 pairs of 2s together, AND it was on Tuesday (pronounced twos-day) and it was literally two's day!
I saw two dimes on the floor, they seemed to just appear there but I didn't see it happen. They just seemed out of place. They were in the department at work I was not in that day (Tuesday .. again) but I'm in today. the two co-workers were there. One dime was by the fax machine, the other was in the other room by the copier. They are similar machines.
So, there is something about 2's and it's happened in dreams and in synchronicities in teh real world. I do not know what that means yet, but it's been happening a lot, basicaly starting since 12-22-2009 but may have started a little before that?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

"Drawn" A Short Fim by Tim Burton

I dreamed I saw a short simple film by Tim Burton. It was just black line drawings on a white background at first. It has many references to "draw". This odd man meets this odd woman when they both seem to be the only ones to witness an oddity in their world. I do not know what they say, but it would be like seeing the edge of the paper or a CGI element in their line-drawn world, something that questioned the order of things, reality itself.

They mustn't draw attention to themselves
or draw the attention of the authorities
or they will be drawn and quartered as punishment
and/or drowned (sounds like drawn a bit)
they are drawn towards the anomalies

But what are they to do? They keep seeing evidence that their world is not as they have been told. Shouldn't the truth matter more? How will they avoid being hunted by authorities but haunted by these odd occurrences? What will they do when THEY start to change themselves? Can they hide it for long? What will tip the balance from these oddities becoming normal and what was expected become rare? What will the world do then?

Sketch ---> more professional line drawing ---> more shading and details ---> CGI ---> live-action

Do they find a way to escape or be rescued from the clutches of their world to be able to fully enter this new world? Is there still a line-drawing about them? Because then how will they ever fit into this other world, especially when they can never return to their old world.