Great ... a Dad dream. Let's see what I can recall ...
I am in a house with my dad. At least 2 floors, many rooms, lots of stuff. Daylight or well lit inside. I forget if there is anybody else present.
I have been planning this trip/move for a long time. A female friend has offered to take me on vacation to Europe and then ... who knows to stay? I feel like myself with this woman, like I can relax and just be.
But I have lost my phone. I put it next to my packing. I need it to call her to finalize details with her. But it is not where I left it. When I walked into the room where i left my phone, I saw a shadow dash out the other door on the far side. It sure seemed like it could have been my dad.
So, I am multi-tasking.
1) I have random stuff to do today.
2) I am looking for my phone.
3) I am looking to gather all my packing stuff together to be in one place.
4) I am looking for my Dad.
SO, I'm doing all that. room to room, messing about and sometimes gathering packing materials. It is never easy to get the packing materials, always a game to it somehow, yet it is FUN! These games are fun.
I am almost done when I come across my dad. He says he is gathering packing stuff. I say but that's what I am doing! He thinks it's cute that I actually believe I am going any where. "You can't go anywhere, Joh. What would you do when you got there? Why fail in some far off place when it is better to just be here?"
He is baiting me. Just smile and continue on, John. But, I have to ask about the phone.
"Well, that's not a good sign, is it? If you can't keep track of your phone, how are you going to get anywhere?"
"I was just wondering if you have seen it. I left it by my packing HQ in my bedroom and went to the bathroom. When I came back it was gone."
"Huh! I guess you should do as I do and keep it on you all the time. But you don't like to carry things with you, do you, John? Because of your issues, you won't even wear a watch."
(oh for fuck's sake! It's like my dad has found a way to enter my dreams! >.<)
"Dad, we are the only ones here. I saw you go out the other door. May I please have my phone back?"
"You don't even have a real phone. See, mine is a real phone. And here it is, on my hip holster! I have not managed to lose it like you always do."
(ARGH! OK, just keep calm John.)
"Fine. May I please have my fake phone back?"
"OK." He doesn't hand it to me. "Hey look, I am going on a trip, and you are copying off me and going on a trip, too!"
"I am NOT copying off you, my friend and I planned this months ago."
"You are going with her again? I thought --"
"NO, Dad! This is a different person, different situation. Sorry, I am just saying this is now that was then. Now may I please--"
"We are the same, see? We are both going on a trip. We are practically twins! We are just alike. Now, if you just give up this silliness and come with me, I can keep taking care of you and --"
"WE ARE NOT TWINS! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? WE ARE FALSE TWINS ... I MEAN WE ARE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO BEING TWINS! WE ARE NOTHING ALIKE! WHY DO YOU KEEP SAYING THAT? WHY DO YOU KEEP SEEING ME AS YOU BUT AT THE SAME TIME AS A FAILURE AND UNABLE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF ... IF WE ARE TWINS IT MEANS YOU ARE ALSO A FAILURE AND UNABLE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!"
"I am doing fine. I have not lost my phone. I didn't go on that useless trip before that you spoke so highly of."
"Would you STOP! Please. Just ... give me back my phone and ... just give me back my phone."
"Well, I'll see what I can do. If you deserve it."
I stare at him, seething! I reach over, grab his jacket that he took off and set beside him, and storm off.
"Hey, where do you think you are going with my jacket!"
"I don't care about the jacket, I know my phone is in here. I just don't know which pocket it is in."
"But I put it in there when you were not looking how could you know?"
"Because, unlike you, I can see below the surface to what is really there!" I yell this at him as I am storming off away from him, searching pockets. He better not follow me!
***
I kind of woke up from this, but I calmed myself with a word game. How many words begin with "li-" or something similar. So, I started thinking of them all. Lie, liar,, lye, linoleum, limousine, lenticular cloud, lime, line, linebacker, lint, lip, lipstick, lit, light, live, ...
I did this off and on the rest of the night, able to go back to sleep, but I woke up still trying to think of LI-words. Odd! Man, there are a lot of li words!
